it’s incredible to be seen so clearly: as a brown, short, Colombian teenager on tumblr wanting so badly to be thin, white, tall, and “pale.” Struggling for years and years with mental health, and how it doesn’t seem whatsoever rewarding to “get better.” However My current long term relationship is helping me with that, because my toxic patterns will only make me lose the most cherished thing that I have. Thank you for writing this piece <3
I feel this very much. In the past, I kept comparing myself to others on social media and after I decided to quit them I questioned myself things such as this and it is nice to read it from you. I found myself feeling weird for seeing people happy while I was feeling very bad, seeing friends finding good jobs and being mentally stable to do a lot of things like traveling, hanging out and partying. At the moment I knew someone was going through the same I was I felt safe. As humans I think that we look forward to resemble as a natural thing but I don’t want to feel challenged and weird by seeing people happy and mentally stable just because i’m not. Also I don’t want to keep looking to relate to people on social media just to feel like it is normal to feel like I am, when I know it’s not
It's hard to see other people happy when you are not, but I think it also serves as inspiration and to show us that happiness does exist and that one day we will feel it too.
I looooooved this so much, you basically put into words my entire teenage years and it was crazy to see someone else go through that and realise it happened by either going to therapy or spending a little longer thinking about your life. I love the way you write and the way you let us bit by bit inside your brain. And yes, we follow each other on insta and I've seen you change in the past year (maybe) and it's been amazing to see you grow and blossom and become the girl you are today. You're incredible, and also thank you so much for sharing everything you write. I always look forward Sundays to read you <3
"Why do we want young people to be miserable? Are we so threatened by other people’s success and happiness that we want them to be depressed forever? Why is it that we need to relate to the lives of people we watch on the internet?" – I couldn't agree more. I rly like this piece, it's so real
Thank you so much for writing this <3 Sometimes the internet feels like an endless loophole of "dramatic events" and "story times" and it makes me forget that being "boring" in this generation doesn't *actually* mean being boring, but rather not as dramatic as "ineteresting" people. I currently stryggle with this, trying to change my perspective and start feeling nice and not guilty for being what they call boring, just because my interests or stories don't always have a spicy or shocking twist. It's refreshing to see someone express it in such a simple yet beautiful way.
Also the other thing that pushes me to “getting better” is art and creating and writing. @StrawberryOyster wrote that not creating/making art will kill you, so you have to do it. For yourself and for your life, and I think that’s an excellent way of seeing it, creation as necessity
Luisa, me agrada tu forma de expresar lo que sientes a través de la escritura, especialmente si lo haces en inglés ( me ayuda a practicar🙂). No he vivido una situación igual a la que describes pero si he experimentado en etapas de mi vida esas emociones y se lo que sientes. Solo te puedo decir que nada es mas grande que nuestro amor propio y debemos enfocar nuestra energía, atención y tiempo a las cosas que realmente nos brindan bienestar, ese es el pilar del camino dinámico que nos conduce a la felicidad. Soy de Cartagena, si alguna vez quieres charlar aquí estoy🙂
it’s incredible to be seen so clearly: as a brown, short, Colombian teenager on tumblr wanting so badly to be thin, white, tall, and “pale.” Struggling for years and years with mental health, and how it doesn’t seem whatsoever rewarding to “get better.” However My current long term relationship is helping me with that, because my toxic patterns will only make me lose the most cherished thing that I have. Thank you for writing this piece <3
I feel this very much. In the past, I kept comparing myself to others on social media and after I decided to quit them I questioned myself things such as this and it is nice to read it from you. I found myself feeling weird for seeing people happy while I was feeling very bad, seeing friends finding good jobs and being mentally stable to do a lot of things like traveling, hanging out and partying. At the moment I knew someone was going through the same I was I felt safe. As humans I think that we look forward to resemble as a natural thing but I don’t want to feel challenged and weird by seeing people happy and mentally stable just because i’m not. Also I don’t want to keep looking to relate to people on social media just to feel like it is normal to feel like I am, when I know it’s not
It's hard to see other people happy when you are not, but I think it also serves as inspiration and to show us that happiness does exist and that one day we will feel it too.
I looooooved this so much, you basically put into words my entire teenage years and it was crazy to see someone else go through that and realise it happened by either going to therapy or spending a little longer thinking about your life. I love the way you write and the way you let us bit by bit inside your brain. And yes, we follow each other on insta and I've seen you change in the past year (maybe) and it's been amazing to see you grow and blossom and become the girl you are today. You're incredible, and also thank you so much for sharing everything you write. I always look forward Sundays to read you <3
Thank you so much for your words, Mafe.
"Why do we want young people to be miserable? Are we so threatened by other people’s success and happiness that we want them to be depressed forever? Why is it that we need to relate to the lives of people we watch on the internet?" – I couldn't agree more. I rly like this piece, it's so real
Thank you so much for writing this <3 Sometimes the internet feels like an endless loophole of "dramatic events" and "story times" and it makes me forget that being "boring" in this generation doesn't *actually* mean being boring, but rather not as dramatic as "ineteresting" people. I currently stryggle with this, trying to change my perspective and start feeling nice and not guilty for being what they call boring, just because my interests or stories don't always have a spicy or shocking twist. It's refreshing to see someone express it in such a simple yet beautiful way.
Also the other thing that pushes me to “getting better” is art and creating and writing. @StrawberryOyster wrote that not creating/making art will kill you, so you have to do it. For yourself and for your life, and I think that’s an excellent way of seeing it, creation as necessity
YES! Yesterday I was thinking how much writing has helped me heal and understand myself better. Art sustains us.
Luisa, me agrada tu forma de expresar lo que sientes a través de la escritura, especialmente si lo haces en inglés ( me ayuda a practicar🙂). No he vivido una situación igual a la que describes pero si he experimentado en etapas de mi vida esas emociones y se lo que sientes. Solo te puedo decir que nada es mas grande que nuestro amor propio y debemos enfocar nuestra energía, atención y tiempo a las cosas que realmente nos brindan bienestar, ese es el pilar del camino dinámico que nos conduce a la felicidad. Soy de Cartagena, si alguna vez quieres charlar aquí estoy🙂
Thank you for sharing this ❤️