you don’t even understand how reflective every word of this is to my situation rn. i was just speaking with my dad about this. thank you for writing this!! we’ll figure this thing out…whenever that may be <3
I definitely can relate. I felt crippled in my first year of college when they wanted me to declare a major. Pick ONE thing????!! My multi-passionate personality used to scare me in my 20's, but in my 30's I have leaned the fuck in. And my biggest advice is - don't worry about the follow through. You will likely have one or two passions that you fall so deeply in love with that you won't be able to stop doing them. I've been in the nutrition/wellness industry for my adult career so far. But in one lifetime so far I have also played piano and live music, unicycled, done a lot of yoga, learned to rock climb, studied French (I'm not technically fluent but I learned enough to have a 30-minute conversation in an Uber in Paris and that felt pretty cool!!), I've pole danced, learned to throw pottery, I had a small company making homemade body care for a few years (I got a good enough return on investment and let myself move on when I wasn't feeling it anymore).... I'm currently in school again and learning how to mix house music/DJ just for fun. *I am not proficient every single one of the things I've mentioned - but I LOVE not limiting myself when I feel enthusiastic about something!* And, whether or not you continue with anything, learning something new takes a lot of bravery and is great for neuroplasticity!! It's consistent brain exercise to do new things. So many people are terrified of being new (aka "bad") at something that they stick to the things they already know. If you dare to do a lot of things in one lifetime, just focus on starting the one thing you're most excited about right now. Defer the rest to the future. We hopefully have many decades in this lifetime. <3 Love, a gemini manifesting generator
mary beth, thank you for such a lovely comment. i feel so inspired to know people like you have found various things they love and have done all of them. our future is bright and full of possibilities
i’m starting to think that maybe we have to accept all of this. that in our lifetimes our desires might stretch farther than what we can do. so maybe the ‘solution’ is to accept it and be sad about but not so sad that it stops you from doing and enjoying what you can.
as a 27 old I have the feeling I'm running out of time without being concret in nothing because everytime I was doing one thing I was thinking of all the others paths
I relate so much. I'm in my last year of high school and feel overwhelmed because I need to figure out my future . I just get "paralysis" and do nothing. I also am a sagittarius
by quoting Oscar Wilde Stephen Fry says "If you want to be a grocer, or a general, or a politician, or a judge, you will invariably become it; that is your punishment. If you never know what you want to be, if you live what some might call the dynamic life but what I will call the artistic life, if each day you are unsure of who you are and what you know you will never become anything, and that is your reward."
for the past 4 years i keep coming back to this quote and the feeling you described so well. and sometimes i wonder how good it would be to have that confort of always wanting to be something, but then i remember little Rita and how she wanted to have a life just like this, to experience the world and all it's colors in first person, so i keep going on my crazy path.
the more i read your letters the more i get obessed with your writing, truly amazing, thank you for sharing it with the world
I love this so much. This is exactly how I feel. It's overwhelming. It's frustrating at times. I want to do everything and yet I end up doing nothing. This is very helpful
This was so cathartic to read. As someone also in college at the moment (not yet in my twenties though, but later this year), uncertainty can be so paralyzing. I find myself recently in the throes of it, and what you describe—especially in the beginning—I relate to completely. The way you word things is so comforting!
you don’t even understand how reflective every word of this is to my situation rn. i was just speaking with my dad about this. thank you for writing this!! we’ll figure this thing out…whenever that may be <3
I love this! It can be so overwhelming to want so much from life but you're right, we don't have to decide it all now
I definitely can relate. I felt crippled in my first year of college when they wanted me to declare a major. Pick ONE thing????!! My multi-passionate personality used to scare me in my 20's, but in my 30's I have leaned the fuck in. And my biggest advice is - don't worry about the follow through. You will likely have one or two passions that you fall so deeply in love with that you won't be able to stop doing them. I've been in the nutrition/wellness industry for my adult career so far. But in one lifetime so far I have also played piano and live music, unicycled, done a lot of yoga, learned to rock climb, studied French (I'm not technically fluent but I learned enough to have a 30-minute conversation in an Uber in Paris and that felt pretty cool!!), I've pole danced, learned to throw pottery, I had a small company making homemade body care for a few years (I got a good enough return on investment and let myself move on when I wasn't feeling it anymore).... I'm currently in school again and learning how to mix house music/DJ just for fun. *I am not proficient every single one of the things I've mentioned - but I LOVE not limiting myself when I feel enthusiastic about something!* And, whether or not you continue with anything, learning something new takes a lot of bravery and is great for neuroplasticity!! It's consistent brain exercise to do new things. So many people are terrified of being new (aka "bad") at something that they stick to the things they already know. If you dare to do a lot of things in one lifetime, just focus on starting the one thing you're most excited about right now. Defer the rest to the future. We hopefully have many decades in this lifetime. <3 Love, a gemini manifesting generator
mary beth, thank you for such a lovely comment. i feel so inspired to know people like you have found various things they love and have done all of them. our future is bright and full of possibilities
i’m starting to think that maybe we have to accept all of this. that in our lifetimes our desires might stretch farther than what we can do. so maybe the ‘solution’ is to accept it and be sad about but not so sad that it stops you from doing and enjoying what you can.
thanks for the beautiful piece btw. i relate way too much to this atm
As a 36 year old this is still very relevant, but with a crippling fear that time is running out thown in 🙈
as a 27 old I have the feeling I'm running out of time without being concret in nothing because everytime I was doing one thing I was thinking of all the others paths
Yes, 35 here. I concur.
Same here!
Luisa, I am a 50 yo Professor, and I am all over the place, too. This really resonated with me. Thank you! Good luck, and God bless! Enjoy the ride!
I relate so much. I'm in my last year of high school and feel overwhelmed because I need to figure out my future . I just get "paralysis" and do nothing. I also am a sagittarius
by quoting Oscar Wilde Stephen Fry says "If you want to be a grocer, or a general, or a politician, or a judge, you will invariably become it; that is your punishment. If you never know what you want to be, if you live what some might call the dynamic life but what I will call the artistic life, if each day you are unsure of who you are and what you know you will never become anything, and that is your reward."
for the past 4 years i keep coming back to this quote and the feeling you described so well. and sometimes i wonder how good it would be to have that confort of always wanting to be something, but then i remember little Rita and how she wanted to have a life just like this, to experience the world and all it's colors in first person, so i keep going on my crazy path.
the more i read your letters the more i get obessed with your writing, truly amazing, thank you for sharing it with the world
I love this so much. This is exactly how I feel. It's overwhelming. It's frustrating at times. I want to do everything and yet I end up doing nothing. This is very helpful
i love this, and i LOVE the worst person in the world. Julie felt so relatable to me, thank you for this <33
This was so cathartic to read. As someone also in college at the moment (not yet in my twenties though, but later this year), uncertainty can be so paralyzing. I find myself recently in the throes of it, and what you describe—especially in the beginning—I relate to completely. The way you word things is so comforting!
thank u for reading <3
fellow sag sister!! perfectly expressed how i’ve been feeling lately - u r not alone!
I've never resonated with a piece so much before, articulated everything I feel presently in life. Loved so much, thank you <3
as a sagittarius i feel this so incredibly deeply
this is exactly where i am and why my substack exists as well. ♥️ love that you are bringing authenticity to the table
Thank you. This is what I need right now! 💗